Sunday, February 24, 2008
There is no other feeling more frustrating than being utterly frustrated. It is not a feeling that I like to endure for very long...yet, in my line of work it rears it's ugly head more often than not. You see, I work with people...and not just one type of people, but many types, of all ages, shapes, colors and any other defining characteristic that you want to throw out there. But I digress...I am in a position that I do not believe I was ready for when I assumed it. And because of that I am having to learn how to do my job while I am doing it. So, yes, I make mistakes, and yes, I have no clue what is around the corner. So where does the frustration come in to play?? Well, when people think that things should go one way and voice that opinion strongly, when that is almost in the direct opposite direction that I am trying to go, I get frustrated. And when I say that I don't know if that is the right direction, that person precedes to tell me that they think that I REALLY should pray about that, it kinda starts to get under my skin. I am so frustrated that I don't think that I am making very much sense. It is just that I am at the point where I don't know if I am in the right place anymore. I don't know if I am doing this job because it is where God wants me, or it is because I just don't know what else to do. And that is a frustrating place to be.